Domestically Disabled

Today was like a comedy sitcom in my kitchen.  It could have easily been on a Friends episode.  Listen people, I can bake.  That was until we went GLUTEN FREE.  Cooking with gluten free flour can be a real hurdle.  I have mastered some recipes, like my blueberry paleo muffins and pancakes.  Now I have to master the Gluten Free Chocolate Chip cookie.   Oh man!

I got this fab recipe off the back of GUITTARD semi sweet chocolate chip bag.  I envisioned these beautiful fat gewy cookies. I couldn't wait to get started.   Well....here is my first try.  Please feel free to laugh at me.  My husband always says  "You could burn a salad".

When the timer went off, I happily skipped over to the oven.  When I opened the oven door I saw a monster of a cookie. Well, the cookies weren't burnt.  They just formed one giant cookie.  The size of a pizza pan.   Instead of crying, I just laughed and took it all in good fun.

I am pretty sure combination of the Paula Dean size butter portion and the consistency of gluten free flour caused all the little dough drops to melt together and form the mammoth cookie you see before you.

So, I decided to freeze the cookies for about 20 minutes.  This is what I got....

Maybe it wasn't my Betty Crocker cookie commercial fantasy, but I got one happy little boy out of this baking experience.....

Oh Virgo!

My first challenge I gave myself was the daunting task of the dreaded PANTRY!  Uhg!!!  Living in rentals, space is always  an issue.  With our small pantry and growing family.....space is limited.  As the days, weeks, and months go by the crap in the pantry is stacking up.  My first instinct is to close it shut and ignore it.  My second and very intense instinct was the need to ORGANIZE.

I was born in September, so I am your typical VIRGO.  Yes, we have a bad reputation for being a Perfectionist.  But, it can work  in our favor.  We get these urges to organize and obsess over details.  So, let's use that for good not evil.

Now with my tight budget, this is what I came up with for my pantry makeover.  I am not totally satisfied and probably go to the dollar store for more glass jars.   (Another trait of a Virgo... super duper critical....and yes we want to be perfected).

BEFORE...................

AFTER..............

I used glass jars to store cookies, pasta, cereal, trail mix, nuts, flours, dried fruit, and gosh knows what else.  I took my hanging shoe rack  and hung it from the inside of the door.  It holds can goods, tea, cooking oils, and this/that.  The plastic bins hold snacks, baking supplies, and vitamins.   I organized each shelf by a category and the floor of the pantry has my Kitchen Aid, a file box (it holds wax paper, baggies, aluminum foil), and a recycle bag (contains grocery bags). 

You wouldn't believe how much stuff I threw out!  I think a few more storage bins and I should be satisfied.  Oh Virgo! 

A Challange for Life.

As my 33rd birthday draws closer, I feel my chest tighten up and the anxiety of getting older begins to fester.  I often stare in the mirror and look for for flaws.  Like how many wrinkles I have or the grey hair starting to creep in.  Or how going for a run just isn't enough these days to lift the ol' Wilcox butt up.  I keep thinking about how tired I feel. The amount of energy I need to have in order to keep up with my toddler.  I reminisce of my Rock-n-Roll days in my 20's (Damn I had fun!).  I wish I had the energy I had then. I wish I had the life inside me I had then.  What happened? Why am I wasting time wishing for those things or dwelling on negative thoughts.  It does me no good.

Then I had an epiphany, if you will.  I took a hard look at myself....a real hard look at who I am now.  I took a deep breath faced the not so good qualities and bad habbits I have developed over the years.  I came to find out.  I really don't like myself. I don't like who I have become.  Kinda this lazy, half assed, procrastinating, passive, dreamer.  I sit back and let things just.....happen....or NOT happen.  Now with that said, I do admire the person I am at work. If anything, my parents taught me EXCELLENT work ethic. Now I just need to bring that drive home to my personal life.   I don't think I am a bad person.  I think I have turned kind of into ADVERAGE.  I don't like being adverage.  I can be better...I can be great.  I am going to OWN it and accept full responsiblity for all of it. 

I have decided to give myself a challange.  A CHALLENGE for LIFE!  I commitment to myself and to my family to be the best I can be every day (super duper cheez..right!).  But I think it is most important that I am doing this for me, cause I want to.   Otherwise, I wouldn't be fully commited. 

So, with that said, I am using this blog to hold myself accountable for none other than myself.  I hope you follow me through my journey.  Cheer me on.  I know this wont be easy. I know I will still have my dark moments. But I think that this will be the best kind of thearpy for me.  I will blog about my daily "challanges"... like organizing my pantry to becoming better mom to plucking my eyebrows to finishing my crafting that I started to blog about a few months ago. 

My journey starts now.